11:08 p.m. its back. but just a little.
i have been doing/feeling so good about getting/being over the one that denied my love. until a few days ago. i mean i am not falling apart again here, but he's snuck into my mind recently.
I suppose its not weird to occasionally think about someone that you not so long ago offered your whole entire heart to....but i thought maybe i was an exception or something.
when he creeps into my thoughts it doesn't make me go to my bad place necessarily. If i dwelled over it long enough i could surely break again, but im trying hard to avoid that mess.
what exactly do i think about when those clouds float by? that i miss him so much. even though the pain of him leaving me almost ate me alive, i still miss him. i suppose thats maybe morbid or stupid (take your pick). I wonder how he is doing. i wonder if he misses me. i wonder why i keep wondering about him. i wonder if i am just a giant idiot for still thinking of him (mind you these are involuntary thoughts).
ok. thats enough for right now. feeling raw, and vulnerable to sad things right now. im going to try and think of something good and go to sleep.
men. always foggin' up our damn minds....Pssshh!
