11:33 p.m.  i think my heart is still leaking. i can feel it in there, the sadness is dripping out.

this is the worst hurt i have ever felt.  its still in there, battling against me, trying to darken my every rainbow.  maybe something is on fire, because i feel it burning in there too.

God, please just come and help me.  i desperately need you.  i don't know where to start, and i know i've been away for a long time.  but, please, please, please..........have mercy on my broken heart.  it hurts so bad. deliver me from sorrow and emptiness.  please be with me.  i can't be alone any longer.  let's meet in the mountains in my dreams, ok?