soul music

Top 10, dead or alive....or again!

1. The Beatles

2. Queen

3. Tom Petty (again!)

4. Simon and Garfunkel

5. Micheal Jackson

6. Dispatch

7. Stevie Wonder

8. Hootie and the Blowfish

9. Creedence Clearwater Revival

10. Jon Foreman (with or without switchfoot)

I have been working on perfecting this list for a while now. The only changes I would make is to make it longer. Feel free to comment back with your top 5's or 10's.

first day of school!

Hey kids. Today is my first day of school. I am embarking on a new program, in a new town! I am really excited. The program is Architectural Design/Building Construction. I am a minority in the class being one of maybe two girls, and one of maybe two non-traditional students. It should be interesting. I am ready to learn. I want to use what God gave me to do something sweet in this life. So, I will use my creativity to design, and my hands to build.

I feel like I should have a picture of me standing in the doorway with my backpack on, sneakers laced and smile cheesy. I'll see what I can do (would have to be a timer self-portrait cause my only roommate is a plant named Carlysle and he isn't very good at taking pictures)!

First day of school since 2005. here we go.

listening to: Jon Foreman

drinking: fresh ground/brewed percolator coffee

sooo many blessings

a little journaling, for me to write and you to read.

now playing: song: she's electric - oasis, up next on my 'spring fever 2010' playlist is Waltz into me - Hootie and the Blowfish

Location: Red Rooster Coffee House, aberdeen, south dakota, usa, earth, world.

Outfit: Denim Bermudas with Green shirt and flip flops.

Drinking: Iced Mocha with a little almond and coconut (almond joy mocha), with skim milk and and an extra shot of espresso.

wishing for: my best friend, and more days off work.

Thankful for: MANY MANY THINGS!

Ok, Ill start with that, what im thankful for. I really have sooooo many things to be thankful for right now. Blessings of many things for my upcoming adventure. This includes a school and program that I am really excited about an apartment to live in, a job to work at, and great people to support me in it all.

What else am I thankful for? Good friends, and GOOOOOOD family. I think I should make a word that incorporates friends and family into a unified group of people. Framily? Fremds? I'll work on it. But, what I am getting at is that I have soooooooo many good people in my life. I have a great God-Given-Blood-Family (God Bless the Dingers hah). But there are soo many other families that have taken me in as honorary members. Like, I feel as though I belong with them. I am soo thankful to have that. Some people hardly like or stay active in their own families, and I have like a handful of extra families, It's really nice. Thank you to the families that Love on the Blaire.

Here is a shout out: Dingers - thanks for always being there, and for being so damn colorful. You're mine forever! Sorensens - I love spending time with you, and always leave feeling warmer and encouraged. You Mean a lot to me! Moslanders - I have always felt like another part of your family, that I just fit right in. Robin, you were something so special to me when I really needed it years back. Thank You. Hilgemanns - My first 'second' family haha. Thanks for including me in so much, and opening your family up to me. I love you all! Slabbs/Gibsons (my Aussie family) - You all ROCK! You welcomed me and took me in. Thank You soo much for everything. I look forward to coming to see you all again....REALLLLLLY SOOOON I HOPE! Auntie Blaire Loves you. Lovriens - it's always a pleasure to come over and visit. You are a great family, and thank you thank you thank you for the fabulous trip to DISNEYWORLD!!! Schlotters - a serious 'second family.' I feel like you are my family, and I am part of yours. Thank you for everything and I look forward to all the years to come together!

Wow, that's a lot for a girl to be thankful for! I think it's important to take time to reflect on the things that you've been blessed with. I really hope that I am living in a way that reflects my gratitude for all of the good things in my life. I should be.

Ok, I think Ill close out this post, and maybe write more later, about some other things.

Go and be thankful!

Blaire

some lyrics

he put it in the bottle and he threw it out to sea
but the tide would not surrender and it floated to the beach
so the message of apology his love would never see
he walked around that island all shipwrecked, and heavy

the scars of early childhood stood showing on the skin
necessary enemy so healing could begin
from the message of apology his heart might soon break free
for now he walks that island all shipwrecked, and ready

low beyond horizon lines across the salty sea
a boat without a captain makes its way to some city
he prays that it would sail its course to lover or to kin
and fan a thirst for searching and finding him again

finding him again
finding him again

'Shipwrecked' by Jars of Clay

ooh

wait.

one more thing that I'm sure of.

Risk.

I'm ready.

For living, and learning, and loving.

Goodnight~

hmm

listening to: 'just breathe' pearl jam.

current mood: undecided

current feeling: insecure

next current feeling: a little mad-ish

current action: a layer uncovered, exposed.

Insecure: uncertain, unassured, doubtful, anxious, worried.

ok. so. i think i need to work some things out. i dont know where these insecurities come from, but they're there. I know when they are most present, and that concerns me. But, just breath, and chill the "f" out are a part of my self-pep-talk. I wish i could just freaking chill, and stop the wheels from spinnin. But, i still have to pay attention to these feelings, they're telling me something. When I remind myself that it will all be ok, i feel better. That Im doing what I can, my part, and that's good enough. It has to be, there's nothing more i can do in these situations, except hope.

Not entirely sure where I am going with this, except to say that I am human too, and have some insecurities that I need to pay attention too.

In spite of my insecurities in some things, maybe it's important to voice what I am sure of.

I'm sure that ultimately Jesus is the only man who can love me as much as I need to be loved. Thank you Jesus.

I'm sure that right now, I'm really tired.

I'm sure of my eyes closing right now.

ok.

until next time,

cheers!

free to move myself

.......a very good friend of mine and I once (this very day) chatted about what we ACTUALLY govern in our own lives, and in this world. It's really simple. At least right now it is to me. Like, what can we actually control? Ourselves. We have the supreme power of our own actions; to ourselves and to others. We control individually how ourself thinks, speaks, acts....loves. How we use our bodies. What we DO with ourselves. We have the liberty to make decisions with real live outcomes. That is cool.

In some ways, it seems that the control range is small. But ultimately, we control so much by just controlling ourselves. We can control what may happen by what we DO.

Haha, it feels like sometimes it would be easier if we could just control other people too, but just the clown bags that is.

I feel mixed about this revelation. It's an "AHH HAH!" moment that has already been known, but I've never thought about it like this before. The mixed feeling arose when I flashed back at millions of mean thoughts I have thought before. I was like, whoa, I could have controlled that. And I want to try to.

I don't know if this even makes sense to anyone else. oh well.

I think Im going to visit this again sometime.

I have a headache now, so.........BBL (be back later, don't know if that is a real abreviation, but im using that from now on).

Thanks kids, keep on rockin!

mmmm hmmmmm

my hair is down, because i let it. here it goes!

green is a favorite color!

hi. so today is NICE OUTSIDE! what a relief. I havn't blogged in a few days, woops. I am not trying to be lazy about this, I am just not sure how i want to get this going exactly. I'll just keep writing, and hopefully I'll figure it out. I'll take questions and suggestions too! I suppose I can't just jump right into the major exposing and big 'life' stuff, i should ease into it. So, I'll just journal for now. enjoy!

Listening to: Old Crow Medicine Show, yum!

So, I'm happy. Happy is a good thing. I'm also sick, sickness is a BAD thing. I'd like to punch phlegm in the face, and then cough on it. God, please heal me, please!

Sooo....I've been staying with my best friend for a few days because my basement flooded, and is smelly and icky still. A crummy deal for the house, but a sweet deal for the bestie and me. I love that lady. Three words: fun, FUN, and fuuuuuuuuuuuuun! Love it, thanks steph!

Hmmmm, so....I have a pretty sweet activity on sunday that I am looking forward to, date night! There is a fresh romance in my life, and it makes me smile, big! Blaire, don't screw it up, haha. He's a rad dude, and is as open and expressive as I am. No idea how awesome that is to me. In this new adventure I look forward to: getting to know him better, laughing together, DATE NIGHTS, cuddle parties, getting to know his peeps and much much more! I like Mike. I feel pretty cheesy, and i LOVE IT!

now listening to: death cab!

Tattoos. This.can't.wait.much.longer. nuff said.

need to shower, and make plans for today. I might go to watertown to see the sis and my babies! I love them. I miss them. I should go. I should also work. But working is ewe, and I'll be there for 12 hrs plus tomorrow, so....I think I'll go!

Later. Happy Friday. Make good choices, and choose to have fun!

mind ramble

ok. this is what my head is saying, in the order of wtf:

-did i turn the coffee pots off at work? - go to the bank in the morning - call mom in the morning - i miss oliver - im hungry - hope it's nice tomorrow - paint nails - set alarm - steph is coming home soon - yay - make plans to make my new bed - i want more milk but i don't want to walk upstairs - i WANT SOME TATTOOS, BAD! - my back hurts, wish i had a large set of hands rubbing my back - make hair appointment - go potty - getting sleepy - graduation presents - pay car insurance bill - call about appartment - what did i eat today? - this is going to be a really boring post - still thinking about those hands, mmm - my computer is going to die - im going to sleep - mike txtd me, nice to know someone is thinking about me!

goodnight kids